Tuesday, April 19, 2016

My biggest pet peeve/my greatest hypocrisy

I have now listened to all of conference. Believe it or not, my favorite talk came from the Relief Society session. Henry B. has long been one of my favorites. You can feel how much he feels the Spirit.  And he speaks to my spirit.
"Trust in that Spirit which leadeth to do good" was a great talk! We talk about service so much in the church, specifically the women, but president Eyring touched on something that drives me crazy. It seems to me that so many in the church want to be seen doing their good. I am not saying their intentions aren't good. It's 100% possible to serve and love someone and yet want to be seen for it. This is why in the title I say it's my greatest hypocrisy. I lose so much respect for people that tell me of the good they are doing, yet when I do something good I want to make sure and squeeze it into conversation. Drives me crazy for them, drives me crazy for myself. Good news: I'm very self aware. :)
My favorite part of this talk was when he spoke of the woman who anointed Jesus' feet. Jesus says in Mark 14:9: "wheresoever this gospel shall be preached throughout the world, this also that she hath done shall be spoken of for a memorial of her."
And isn't that true? This woman, who is otherwise unremarkable, made the Gospels.
President Eyring goes on to say, her "holy deed to honor the Savior of the world is remembered, but not her name."
That sentence was my favorite of all of conference. Why show your left hand what the right does? Isn't God seeing it and being appreciative better than the world? I know I would rather have the gratitude of my Savior than that of the world. Anyway, the world generally isn't grateful. They will find something to scorn or pick apart.
Sister Esplin in her talk quoted President Monson, "we are the Lord's hands here upon the earth, with the mandate to serve and to lift His children. He is dependent upon each of us."
The Lord depends upon me. And if he depends on me, why should I care that the world sees my service? I know he does.