Easter

Every year for spring break we go to Utah to see Kyle's family. They aren't members of the church and I am always a little let down on Easter. I want my kids to have a great Easter experience where they feel of their Savior's love and get to hear testimony that He lived and lives still. With each Easter that passes I feel sadder and sadder. Easter, to me, is the most important Christian holiday. We make a big deal of Christmas, but without the Resurrection, Christ's birth wouldn't mean what it does. I wonder if my kids know what Easter means to me? I wonder if they understand that Jesus Christ has saved me? I wonder if they know that He has made our family possible? Without Him we wouldn't be together for eternity. That might be a tough concept for kids, but it is one that I sure hope they understand soon.
This morning we were driving home from Utah during the sunrise. As I thought of the sun rising, I was impressed with the great engineering of the Lord. He made a beautiful plan. Everything has an answer. This is going to sound a bit little a ramble, so stay with me for a second. Just think of some of the "natural" occurrences of our every day: the earth goes around the Sun so we can rest at night, women have babies to replenish the Earth, something as simple as the water cycle. Again, I know that sounds like random things, but I am just spit balling here. How could those things ever be thought to be accidental, or without a Master planner behind them? I don't know who said it, but someone said the idea of a Big Bang is like imagining a printing press blowing up and the result being an encyclopedia. It's madness. Life and nature are far too intricate to be incidental.
Our Heavenly Father engineered a perfect plan to redemption. Without our Savior's Resurrection, we could not hope to return to His presence. He is the answer to our Humanity. Our failings and struggles are made whole with His help.
My Savior loves me. He has saved me countless times and will continue to do so. I am so glad He is there for me to lean on in my need.
My Savior loves you too.

Ruth

You know something...
The church is incredible.
The Spirit is amazing.

For just a wee bit of reference, in December we were handed out the Relief Society schedule for the year. Every fast Sunday we would be studying one of the women of the Bible for the presidency message. Nothing extraordinary. All normal church type stuff.
March fast Sunday was the story of Ruth, someone I knew nothing about. And honestly, I didn't even pay that much attention... then today, my Father-in-law was diagnosed with staged 4 cancer. And my mother in law needs support. And I can't stop thinking about Ruth and her loyalty and love for her Mother-in-law. Ruth's example deepens my own resolve and compassion and I am inspired.
The Spirit told someone 4 months ago to put Ruth this month. A few days before I would need her story so very much. That is amazing and incredible.

Alas!

Sometimes my library makes me sad. I would add 12,000 books, and yet I don't have the infinite time for the reading I would do. Even for the books I own.
I'd read all the classics, and Shakespeare I'd memorize. New adventures and worlds I'd discover. I wish I could reread each book I've loved so I could remember every detail.
But time waits for no man. It ticks and my books collect dust, begging me to get to them. I'm trying. For the love of all written word, I'm trying!!! Please know I love you all, with you twist and turns and endless entertainment. I love you all.